Missing Mom

In my last post, I talked about the upcoming board recertification exam that I took on April 11. It seemed very important at the time, and I guess it was. I took it, it was hard, and now I await the results that usually take about three months to receive. Since then, however, my life has changed.

My mom died last week.

I sit here this Sunday morning, six days now without her here, finding it difficult to breathe or move.

My niece was married yesterday in the sweetest of weddings. I wore the wrist corsage that mom would have worn.

It's not clear how to move forward at this point. I will go to church today as I always do, as mom always did. I will be joyful despite my profound sadness, because mom left us with the gifts of joy and faith and love.

I love you, mom. And I miss you more than I can begin to express. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and for always being there.